progress update

Well live has been REALLY crazy the last two weeks. I am so flabbergasted as to how fast Satan works when he gets the opportunity to get his foot in the door. David and I have hit a bump in the road and we are working it out to better our relationship and family. Because of all the stress that I have been in in the past two weeks I JUST weighed my self and I weigh 237.8!!!!! WOW......

Struggles

Ok so we haven't been doing good at all :( We have had sickness in the house and have not eaten well at all. I bought a cookbook that I have started using. It is for people with diabetes. The meals I have made so far are really yummy and the kids will eat the food too which is a plus! One other thing we have changed is our pop intake. I drink one pop a day so that I don't get a caffeine headache. I also do 100 sit ups a day since a lot of my weight is in my tummy. My mom once told me that a woman's body is like a rubber band......it can stretch and retract for so long until it is so stretched out it wont retract anymore. I feel like my body has been stretched to much because it isn't retracting. Also if I don't do anything else (exercise wise) during the day I at least have done 100 sit ups. I weighed myself today and I weigh 253! My first goal is to weigh under 200 lbs by the time Ashley turns one. I know I can do it! David started bringing healthy food to work for lunch like cold meat roll ups. Before he would just go get something. Most of the time it was fast food. Its really hard to change habits you have had for years. Now a days people are so use to instant satisfaction. The fast and easy way and wanting things NOW... Well we fell into that trap and now we are paying for it. I am trying to not only change the lifestyle and path I was headed down (which isn't pretty) but also the lifestyle of our children. instead of grabbing a bag of chips or or a cookie...... grab a apple or a bag of pretzels. It is so HARD. I have noticed that I'm not craving sweets as much as I use to. I would go to the day old bakery at Wal-Mart and load the cart up with cookies, cupcakes, cakes, and doughnuts...... I know disgusting right? I can walk down the candy and snack isle and not grab what ever looked good. That was a HUGE struggle for me. I don't even want that stuff anymore. I can honestly say I have/had a food addiction. I eat because I am bored. Honestly I am scared for this Holiday season because I will eat and eat and eat. Because its there and I can. This is going to be SO hard to control myself because I have NO self control.